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Life is a show? How about a nightmare?

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 02:11:39 GMT

When I hit rock bottom, and then keep going down, and i'm talking to the mirror with no one else aroung. When impossible to maybe is as far as i can see, i keep hanging on, till the world believes in me.

I wish i coudl believe in those words right now. i feel like everything is spinning out of control. i hate it. why i can't i go back to riding my bike named buttercup and pretedning it's a horse? why can't my name be "running cheetah" again and we can pretend to light fire and make our meals? when did i grow up?

The Blower's Daughter

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 03:51:21 GMT

The perfect song for a beautiful Korean piece, Humming!

And so it is...just...like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, most...of the times. And so it is, the shorter story no love, no glory. No hero in her sky. I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off of you I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes... And so it is, jsut liek you said it would be. We'll both forget the breeze...most of the time. And so it is. The colder water, the blower's daughter...the pupil in denial.

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Di I say that I loathe you? Did I say that I want to leave it all behind?

can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

5 Great People In My Life

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 04:13:12 GMT

I'm tired of being angry. I want to talk about the lvoes of my life!

1. I've known you my whole life and I know you better than you know yourself. Even thoguht I can become very critical of you at times, it's only because we're so different. And that's what I love. You don't maek the best choices, but I don't care. You're my biffles, my bestie, and the fork to my chocolate cake! ;] We're so differen't from eachother, but we're also the same. It's crazy when we're to gether, but I know it'll always be a good tiem with you by my side.

2. I was annoyed by your clinginess at first. But now I find my self just as clung to you. I'm sorry I was never what you deserved, but I'm glad we always remained friends and you always believed in me. I lvoe the fact that you don't call me immature or childish, but you embrace my yotuhfulness, and you even join me in my craziness. With you I let loose! I really become a kid again with my raging nastalagia, but I'm glad I always do it with you by my side. I know that it'll work out in the future and we'll always be friends.

3. We didn't start out close. I was always younger at the was the real gap. Yeah, maybe it was only by a few years, but you were decades wiser than any one. I'm glad we got closer and realized exactly how similar we are. We can go shopping together and know we'll pick styles to compliment eachother, not to destroy each other. =] For some reason, people don't like our friendship, but their jsut jealous that we got so close. They awlays bring up the fact that we didn't even exist to eachother when we were little, but i don't care about the past. They're jealous becuase they're all loser, and they know it. Adn they can't be happy for me finding the one person who finally compliment my character in the family!

4. I only just met you, but you've become my twin! I know that our conection wasn't fake. And we get along way too well! And i love it. We have the same style and taste. And you can realate to my weirdness! No one else can quite understand my entertainment as you do. And I'm glad that you actually wanted to stay in contact!

5. We got along so well in the begining...or so I thought! Turns out, you were running your mouth about me behind my back. And when I confronted you to you face, you backed down and faked amnesia about. That's what made us stop talking. I don't know why you did what you did, and I frakly don't care. It was in the past and peopel are always gonna run their mouths about something. But eversince gym class, we got a lot closer thanks to our athletically-challenged-ness. =] Even thought we don't awlays talk and hang out, I'm glad it's never awkward after so long, adn neither of us are bitter about not contacting eachother. We just pick up the pieces and catch up happily. We don't really care what other people think about us, whether it's true friend ship or not, but I know that we'll always get together again in the end. So it doesn't matter how long it's been. We always returns to be friends!

Mute.

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 18:50:58 GMT

You'd think that with the technology these days, people would bother to press the simple mute button when they're talking shit about you. If you're having a bad day, that sucks, but don't take it out on me! It's not my fault your tightly-wound bitch with a broom stick shoved up your tight ass. Don't be rude!

Far and Away

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 16:58:30 GMT

still feeling distant/ Ugh. Getting ready for work. I'm tired and my feet hurt and I jsut want eveyrone to die. lol. No one better get on my nerves!

Human Being. Being Human.

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 16:17:09 GMT

I suppose it's all about that...and procreation, huh?

Why is it that when things are so awful, i'm the only one who seems to worry? It's like no one sees how horrible something is except for me? And I can't be positive, because there's nothing to be positive about. I feel so alone. Like it's not even worth mentioning any mroe because I'm tired of arguing. Why can't I see it liek them?

Wrong. Wronged.

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 17:22:09 GMT

It's been a while, but my feelings haven't changed. I suppose I'm just bored with my life. It's gonna be senior year in a few months! I can't believe it's come so fast.

Why is it that I'm not afraid to admit I was wrong, but that i have to be the only one? It takes two people to fight, and sure msot of the time one is wrong. But it's not jsut me this time. And I won't lay down and take the blame for something so rediculous alone.

You can't push two different minded people together and expect sparks...and babies...and big beach wedding. Byond wishing on stars, it doesn't happen that way babe, I'm sorry. But I feel so comftorable on my own. i'm nto willign to let anyone in right now, especially when there isn't any chemistry. There isn't even any forced chemistry. It's so sad. It's a bunch of one liners that I'm cringing of thinking about. But it was my mistake for never voicing how I really felt.

Perhaps I felt letting nature takes it's course was the best bet, but this isn't mother nature who's forcing this. It's a friend...and I forgot all about that.

I'm dealign with a lot of family issues that I can't bring myself speak about. I've always been this way. I'm okay not telling anyone my secrets. But why? Shouldn't I tell my biffs about it? Words are jsut too hard for me to get out. too hard...

Through My Veins

Tue, 12 May 2009 00:28:23 GMT

I'm tired. And I feel like there's something missing. I want it so bad...but she's always in the way. She's always in the spotlight. And I can't help but be submissive. Because I'm a coward...and a fool. I can't help it.

I'm sad.

I'm tired of being the after thoguht.

Fragile Eternity: Finale

Thu, 07 May 2009 21:21:50 GMT

Okay, so...I promised myself that I wouldn't rush through the book...

but of course, I did! =[

I'm sad I finished! I really wanted to make the book last--especially since I'm up the wlal with bilsl to pay and a trip to NYC next week. Argh! i'm furious at myself. But I can't help it if I read so many damn pages. I tried to read the last three chapters as slow as possible last nghit...but appaerntly not slow enoguh since I finished them in like thirty minutes. lol.

Review: I really liked it! Unlike Wicked Lovely and Ink Exchange, the problems were acutally acknowledged in this book! Whether Seth should keep his mortality or not; the difference between good and evil. All the problems that were put out in both books before were disected in Fragile Eternity, however not all were solved. I won't spoil anything. But, I honestly thought I wouldn't liek this book

Since it was through Seth's eyes, and I really enjoyed it more through Leslie and Niall's drama, I really didn't think I'd like it. But I did. However, I found myself anoyed by Aislinn's fucking stupidity. Soemtimes I wanted to throw the damn book against the wall and pretend it was her fuckign head cause she was so damn stupid! and I wanted to throw Keenan across the room for being such a vindictive douche bag! And Niall? I wanted to kiss him till he was stupid. And Bananach? i wanted to fight that bitch and be that crazy bitches bff! lmao. And you know what I learned from that?

It was written so effing good! Only a good book could make me imagine so much! I couldn't help but feel sorry for Seth. and I loved Leslie from the last book. Even though she didn't appear at all in this one, she mentioend at least once in almost every chapter. And I jsut wanted to hug Niall and seduce him. lol. Him and all hsi damn scars. I want him and Leslie together damn it!

Any way, I got so into the book. My friends kept yellign at me for reading, and I kept laughing to myself and yellign at the book. I got very emotionally involved!

and the best part? We were left with the biggest cliff hanger...which means another book! yes! There is a God!!! I can't wait...no litterally. I mgiht drive myself insane waiting since another book hasn't even been mentioned, but I know it will come! damnit, it better!

Fragile Eternity

Sun, 03 May 2009 21:43:29 GMT

I got it!! How ever i'm pissed off that I ahd to pay 18 fucking dollars for it because they have no paper back! It seems like thye do that for every good series! damn it. But I'm enjoying it. And my man Niall is in a good, sexy fighting scene! lol. Totally got a read it! I'd tell you all, but I don't want to spoil anything.

I'm trying to read slow because I'm totally broke and won't be able to buy a book untill after next week. ugh.